Today is one of those days. Days on which you have to force yourself to get out of bed, cajole yourself into eating some food for breakfast, lunch and dinner, and concentrate on putting one foot in front of the other. Days you prefer dusk to dawn.
You can just see the red-pink patch on the sky slowly fading. The only light is coming from my laptop’s screen. Instead of feeling uneasy or lonely, this is very comforting. You don’t want to think about what appointments you have tomorrow, or how to pay the bills, or what’s happening to the global politics. You want to be in your head-zone to make a hard day bearable. Your body feels heavy, asleep, maybe even temporarily dead. But your brain has latched onto that zone that tunes out the rest of the world but for what you can just see out of your windows. The cars driving by make a soothing, lulling sound. The tall trees feel like a safe wall, like no harm could happen right now. Maybe you should silently brush your teeth and go to bed now. Tomorrow will come faster than you wish it would. Tomorrow you might not be as lucky today – it’s not every day that you can take off.
But it’s still today yet. The pink haze is gone, the darkness has not quite descended on us. There’s still time for today. Time for myself.